Thursday, June 6, 2013

Finally a picnic :D
June 4, 2013 I was finally able to have a picnic. Maybe it wasn't the picnic at the park I have imagined but it was still fun. It was actually quite spontaneous actually. Around 2 to 3 weeks ago I asked my mom to take me to thrift stores to find a picnic basket, and we managed to find one at the second one we went to. It was VERY big and was greenish and a bit worn out, but it was still ok and usable. And on Saturday (May 1 I think)I went to the swap-meet in search of material that is usable for the picnic blanket/cloth/thingy and actually managed to find one close enough :D. Then on Monday in English class (It was a bit like free time to read or work on a project) I though about the read-in for the next day and thought, " if we're going to be reading the entire day can we make a picnic?" and the idea just got to me. I was able to make a picnic and started talking excitedly to my friends like, " we can make a picnic tomorrow ! with the tiny triangle sandwiches and sparkling cider :D!" and we kept planned on what to bring. Though at one point we had to look up picnic foods because I ran out of ideas besides sandwiches. So my friends all brought something: Cristal (cake), Daisy (macaroni salad), Xiomara (potato salad), Lilly (chips), Alicia (soda), Paola (herself), and Luz ( her camera). I ended up making the sandwiches and sparkling cider and the basket and cloth. It was actually fun to do. Almost better than I imagined it, even though it was not in the park. But it is something we all plan to do again hopefully in the near future and go to the park at Balboa, since there is a lake there :D, and go dresses all fancy-ish for the picnic. But it was loads of fun at the read-in, we were comfy, well at least I was most of the time, because we wore out pajamas :).

Sunday, May 19, 2013

6 months :)
So today is 6 months together with him :), though I realized I never said his name its kind of weird to say it. But yah today is 6 months together with Carlos and we were able to go out today :). Though my mom didn't want to take me to where we were going to go, the Burbank Mall, so she made us go there but only dropped me off at the bus stop. So today I was able to experience going by bus somewhere without my family, which has only happened once. It was fun, though we only went to one store, the arcade, and to the movies. Though at first we spent too much time at the store so we missed a showtime. So we went to one theater, then the next, but then checked again for the price, and ended up walking again to the theater outside. It was a very fun day :).
I was also able to buy the origami paper for making paper cranes and got nice paper for 3 dollars with 100 sheets.
I also noticed that it was my first time, or one of my first times I can't remember, time going to the mall without my family. Funny how it isn't with friends but my boyfriend instead.
I'm really glad I'm able to do a lot of stuff with him especially since he's graduating this year though TONS of people keep asking what I'm going to do when he leaves. We'll one thing I am not doing is breaking up with him just because of that, that's for sure.
Even though this wasn't on my bucket-list, at least I don't think it is, I'm really glad we had the chance to do this. Although this time around I don't have any pictures. So enjoy one I think fits the post :)
Funny part is that I still am not able to tell my dad I have a boyfriend and keep it from him for this long. It makes me feel bad that I'm not able to and that I keep on lying to him and makes me wonder how long I'll keep this up. At least I've told my mom about this though.
Thank you for reading :)

Saturday, May 4, 2013

My Obituary Assignment

In English we were suppose to write an obituary of our lives with the best possible out come ... well I didn't really know what I wanted and it made me think about what I wanted to do in life. So I chose what sounded the best the me, or at least sounded interesting to me. I am still just 16 and although college is just around the corner I still can't figure out how I want my life to come out. Although my obituary might be a stretch on how my life will be or how I would like it to be it's still something that I can consider as I plan for my (hopefully) long journey ahead of me in life :). 
"Liseli Luna was the second child and only daughter of Santa Martinez and Enrique Luna. She was born on December 15, 1996 and lived until September 7, 2082. She died from carbon monoxide alongside her husband, a painless death she would have been content with since her husband wouldn’t be sad without her, or vice versa.
She couldn’t decide what she wanted to do as a career so when she graduated high school she decided to do the thing that sounded most interesting to her and decided to become an author and own a café. She owned her café in a peaceful town and knew many of her customers personally. It was one of her countless dreams to create a café with a soothing and fun atmosphere, which she managed to accomplish (from the countless accounts from customers).
She got to travel around the world in search of the best dessert around the world visiting Paris, London, Belgium, and many other places. She also got to visit Japan countless times, and was her favorite place by far. In her house she has multiple pictures of every place she has gone to and at least on knickknack of each place. She also tried to get the recipes of each of her favorite desserts but was only given two recipes since the patisseries’’ did not want to give up their secrets so easily.
She got married on November 19, 2022 to Alan Valadez. She was able to design and get a tailor to make her dream dress, made of lace, to come to life. In her wedding the flowers in her wedding each had a meaning behind it to represent what she wanted in the marriage. She was also able to fold 1000 paper cranes for happiness of her marriage. It was a masquerade/Japanese themed/styled wedding, ( a unique mix that clearly showed her odd interests, and of course her husband was forced to wear a tailcoat to suit her tastes.) She made sure that the food was amazing and would have no less for her guests and herself. And for her honeymoon she went off to Japan to spend time in hot springs and beautiful mountain-ish scenery and then went off to another set of hot springs near the ocean.
She also tried her best to learn how to bake pies and cookies and sweets to give to her children and grandchildren and spoil them with sweets. She managed to create her own recipe book to pass down to her family so that one day maybe they could do the same.
Instead of having children she wanted to adopt since she felt no use to have kids when there were children without some to call a parent who would love to have a family. She ended up adopting three children, two boys and one girl (Josh, Zachery (Zach), and Jacquelyn). She ended up having one child of her own (Celandine) and treated them all equally and as her own. She ended up having ten grandchildren and spoiled them very much.
She was able to have one best seller novel out of the 30+ books that she wrote and one bestselling children’s book. One thing that she always wanted to do was touch a red panda, and by age 38 she was finally able to, even for just a bit, since they are endangered.
At her funeral she asks each person to, if they are thinking of bringing flowers, to get a flower with a meaning behind it, but it is forbidden to hold a meaning of grief or sadness but instead to be a meaning of joy or happiness."
 Trying to make this obituary would require 1: a lot of time, and 2: a lot of money. To be able to travel around the world takes a lot of money and I would need to learn their languages to be able to search for the best dessert or just enjoy the stay well. To own a cafe I would need to go to college and learn about business and probably culinary arts if I wanted it to be a really good cafe (which I would). I would also have to consider where I want to live and how I would want my family to live. So there would be a lot to consider and think about if I really wanted all of my obituary to come true.
Although in the beginning of the year I wrote a list of things that I felt I wanted to do before I die there were many other things that I didn't even think about that I felt happy when I did. Like going to the festival of colors(which I should blog about) or just spending time with my friends. So even if I do plan what to do in the future maybe it's the spontaneous things that counts, but who knows I should just enjoy my youth while I can. 

Thursday, May 2, 2013

The buried life quote

But hardly have we, for one little hour,
Been on our own line, have we been ourselves—      60
Hardly had skill to utter one of all
The nameless feelings that course through our breast,
But they course on for ever unexpress'd.
And long we try in vain to speak and act
            Our hidden self, and what we say and do                     65
Is eloquent, is well—but 't is not true!
And then we will no more be rack'd
With inward striving, and demand
Of all the thousand nothings of the hour
                                 Their stupefying power;                           70
Ah yes, and they benumb us at our call!

This might not be my favorite quote but it is the one I can find the most truth in and that I believe to be true, which is why it most likely "speaks" to me the most. So I made this image and kept it simple (and raw you can say). No fancy art, no actual realism, just a quick drawing of what I believe to be a representation of the lines above from the poem The Buried Life by Mathew Arnold. Of course maybe I could have done better on the art but I'll leave that to another time. I have three phrases I wrote. "They are right" "Am I wrong?" "Who am I?". By playing pretend and always tying to fit in, to not make a scene and not disrupt the flow of things you lose sight of who you are and what really matters to you. You let the judgement of others control how you lead your life and hide your true self so long that not even you remember or know who you are, and even when you lose yourself you still wonder "Am I wrong?" still following the crowd. But why do we do this? Lie to ourselves and become something we are not? I still don't know the answer to this myself and am still trying to find what I can call my "true self". I always wonder "who am I?", I act differently depending on who I am talking to. Is that all the different sides of me or just a facade? When I am by myself am I my true self? When and how will I know I have become my true self and follow what I want to do. Maybe it's the purpose of this blog, maybe it's not, but at least I am able to tell that I need to search for it, that person that I can call "myself" truly and wholeheartedly and make that journey that I can look back on and smile at the road I took to  reach to the place, to the destination of a "TRUE LIFE".

Monday, April 29, 2013

Ferris Wheel and Kiss

You can barely see it but the wheel of lights is there
I read a lot of manga and seen a lot of anime, and when I say a lot I mean A LOT and one scene that I constantly see in manga and anime is a kiss at the top of the Ferris wheel. I was able to do that at the fair on April 21,2013 with my boyfriend who I've dated for 5 months (since Nov. 19, 2012) When we went to buy the tickets to do stuff with he gave me a necklace he got me when he went to Disneyland on his music festival field trip thingy it was really cute and has a special meaning behind it. Although we went from 7 pm to 9 pm all we managed to do was eat churros and I was able to win him a goldfish (which sadly died very soon since his brother convinced him that it was totally safe and OK to put the fish in the pool... and he had no idea chlorine and a pool filter can do a fish harm ) then we were able to go on the Ferris wheel with Guppie/Fishie (couldnt decide on the name i chose or he chose) along for the ride..and then I remembered I wasn't always too good with heights. But since he is veryyyyy sweet he told me that it was okay and that he would protect me, yes my type is the cheesy type. As we got to the top though I was anticipating it and he just asked.. soo do you want to? (since he already knew this was on my bucket-list) I was still slightly scared from the height and just nodded and with that fright and I guess you can say mild adrenaline it was nice, although I'm starting to think if it was more spontaneous it would have been better. Then I started telling him about how it was already time to go and what I was suppose to say to my mom since we were kind of late, but I texted her to let her know we were still on the Ferris Wheel,  and if she found out about my completed bucket-list item.. and his response, typical him, that he was "helping me with homework" since the bucket-list is an assignment for English. He did ask for another kiss and we did... twice more. Then the Ferris Wheel went around.. and around.. and around.. more than 8 times faster than it did to get up since it was part of the ride to enter people and spin a few times and slowly get more people. Well we didn't expect it to last more than 6 spins, but it did, and we laughed every time it spun again since we kept on saying "okay this one is the last on, okay  THIS one is,.." it was really funny and I'm really glad I was able to do it. Although I forgot to take a picture of the Ferris wheel and tried to take one on the way home and the day after before the Fair left (since I lived near the area) but I did manage to take pictures on top since we went around so many times. Now if I ever get the chance I would like to go to a lot of other Ferris wheels and do the same thing, whether I'm still with him or if we end up breaking up and I've mayybbee found someone new and I'll try and remember to blog about it.
the best looking picture

1000 paper cranes

There is a saying that if you folded 1000 paper cranes your wish would come true. Me being a cheesy person, would like to believe that. Although I know I can't wish for world peace or to bring back the dead I can maybe wish for other things :). I've decided to try and fold 1000 paper cranes since it seems interesting, but instead of keeping them I would give them to people. Not really to 1000 people, although that would be cool, but give away 1000 paper cranes. But I forgot I wasn't suppose to say what I wish for and accidentally told people so now I have to think of a new wish. This little charm I guess you can say is the same as making a jar full of paper stars. I think I have given about 22 since I've sadly lost count.. so I'll continue at 22. I've even started up my own mini collection of my own,... and the two I gave my cousin since she left them at my house :/ ...

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Buried Life Update( HW :D)

Many of the students that had the project of making their bucket list and completing obviously new that they had many items on their lists that would be hard to achieve but they chose to do what they could do and didn't let opportunities just go to waste. What they did had meaning to them no matter how small that item seemed to other people. And while looking at their list and accomplishing things they realized some new things about themselves and grew from it. Although it sounds very cliche each of them grew differently and realized different things some realized they needed to change their way of doing things, others learned to be more independent when trying to accomplish their goals, others just decided to accomplish things but at a steady pace and not just rush through it all and enjoy life.

In this project I would like to see what kinds pf experience each of the items would leave me with and how it would be able to make me have a realization about life or change me. Since haven't done much id like to see how each one impacts me, it makes me wonder. To get the most out of this project I would need to actually try and accomplish these things, some that can be accomplished easily, and attempt to try at least on of the harder ones.

Valentine's Day Chocolate :D

Valentine's Day is a special day for many girls all over the world, even if it was a made up holiday for the profit of companies. But this year it was different, I actually had someone to look forward to see that day :). And being the cheesy person I am I made chocolate truffles for my friends and my certain other. Although things didn't really go as planned and ended up not having enough chocolate to cover the truffles so they ended up all nasty looking. But my friends still liked it and thankfully "he" did too :).
 It was a nice day, although many people see Valentine's as a waste and how they don't believe in it and its "why only love the person more on that day? why not some other day or everyday?" simple. It's a matter of perspective. For me it's a day for us people who cant gather enough courage and use it for a chance to tell that person those feelings we hold back. So I cant half cross "Make chocolate from scratch and give it to someone for Valentine's Day"  until the day I don't use semisweet chocolate chips to make them and actually make it from scratch.
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Diary: The material form of memories

So, keeping a diary and reading it later is one of the things on my list. Sadly I haven't been able to remember to write in it. But reading it is still quite interesting and funny in its own way. Reading all of my tantrums about my "miserable life" its quite funny actually, then noticing how in 7th grade there are magically more happier memories written. February 13, 2011 ...i remember reading my diary a few times but this entry really got to me  a while back, cant remember when but it did. " P.S to my older self... have confidence." it was really weird because I forgot about that, so my past self somehow ended up encouraging me back then. Then a more recent one, Negative's About ME June 2012 with a whole section of me just finding my flaws... its funny how anyone reading this post would be "this is too personal you shouldn't be sharing this!" but its the truth, this little book of mine that records all of my memories from day to day to months of not writing but still remembering it. Then after reading the diary of Anne Frank i decided to try my hardest to actually write everyday, but that eventually faded out.

Why is keeping a diary important, for a shorter version for you people? it lets me remember my life, for someone who forgets quite frequently its pretty useful. It makes me remember to not forget these memories I took the time to actually write down, no matter how happy or how sad it was. Keeping memories and my emotions is quite important to me because it will always make me remember who I was and who I've become, what I've lost and what I've gained, as well as what has stayed the same :).

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